I’VE ASKED GOD WHY.

I was scanning my journal this year 2011 then I’ve seen my posts about those guys whom I’ve fell in love with and I was ewwwwing the whole time! XD And then I’ve asked God why He let me meet those jerks. Why did He let them hurt me? Why did He let me fall in love with them and why did He allow them to be a part of my life? Why didn’t He just let “Romeo” come so I wouldn’t feel the pain of being left hanging in the air and being hurt over and over again? Why did He let me cry for so many nights? Why did He let me struggle emotionally? Why didn’t He just give me what I wanted? He didn’t answer directly; He just let me realize this: If I wouldn’t feel pain, how would I know that He’s my comforter? If I wouldn’t feel sadness, how would I know that He’s my joy-giver? If I wouldn’t be hurt, how would I know that His love is more than enough?

Sweet endings came from bitter beginnings. Isn’t it more rewarding to get the things you’ve wanted after working and praying hard for it? It’s like, you’ve thought you’ll never get those and you’ve almost lose hope, and then suddenly, God will give it you because you’ve been patient and faithful. That’s how I feel right now. I never thought that this moment would come, I never thought that a guy like him still exists, though not the one I’ve wanted, but the one I’ve been praying for. I know it’s still early to tell if he’s the prince I’ve been waiting but I do hope that it’s really him.

God works in mysterious ways. Though we can’t understand why or how, His ways are perfect and for our good (Romans 8:28) I know that God is not done with me yet, and greater things are soon to come. It’s just a matter of trust and faith and hope.. :)